Ok. Here's the deal. If I told you that I was maintaining another webspace, and posting conversations/my thoughts about you in it, but no, you can't read it. Then brought it up again in reference to questions regarding your lack of presence online. And then a thrid time, but when pressed, told you that you could read the parts that I thought were neat. But that's it. And no, I'm not gonna tell you where it is, would you trust that all that was said was what I sent you?
Would you trust that I wasn't telling you one thing and my friends another?
Could you continue to trust what I said to you in any forum?
It's the broken trust thats the hardest part to deal with.
I try to tell you everything that I think about you. And those things that I do think that I don't feel you should know, I never allude to. And I NEVER tell ANYONE something about you that I'm not willing to tell to your face. Or have you know exactly what was said.
So, explain to me why I should ever listen to what you have to say to me again?
In case you don't realize it, that's the reason that I gave you that ultimatum.

I won't be posting to this blog anymore. I've got livejournal. If you can figure out which one is mine, more power to you. But, whatever.

You were right. I do miss you. You're never around to talk to when I need someone to fill that function, you know that?