Ok. So, since one of the readers of this thing wants me to update it, and to put in thoughts..here we go. Brain dump:
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sex...
...final fantay x,,,hmm..I wonder how lulu is in the sack...
..sight, I hate living here. it's not just the fact that I have to live with my father..who I dont' get along with very well, it's that I hate the loss of independance that comes with it. It's like, I worked so hard, for so long to be an independant individual, I lived on my own for the past 5 years, almost..but I didn't quite make it. out.
I miss my firends from Vegas. Hell, I miss my enimes from Vegas. Right now, the only friends that I've got are either a) online, or b) Ansel. And even ansel I'm not sure about. I mena, I've known the guy forever, but I just can't get over the fact that the fucker stabbed me in the back like he did. It's like every time I see him..I just want to tear his balls off, and shove them up his ass...but at the same time, I realize that he's been the truest friend that I've ever had. He's helped me through some really hard times in my life, and he's always been there when I needed a shoulder to cry on..metaphoriclly anyhow. I still havn't quite managed to cry. I've tried. Couple of times. And I've gotten kinda close..but I still haven't quite managed it yet...
I'm also having this raging hormonal problems. It's been something like a couple months since I've even made out with a girl, let alone gotten any play..which is really annoying.. [edit: 2 months, 1 week, 2 days. Don't ask me why she remembers this, but she does.]
Went to church for the first time in a little over a decade recently. Spent two hours on confession. I confessed shit that I'd forgotten I'd done. The problem was, was that I wasn't really repentant about alot of it. I mean, there was some that I was..(violating the sanctity of a church, etc,etc.) but I still didn't feel bad...and so I sat down and figured out, from what I confessed..that I'll be spending about 3200 years in Purgatory. Wee me..)
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Travis